Vladimir/Dragon's AP And Dream Log

[Dragon]

My dreams are slowly becoming clearer to me. I'll try and make an effort to recored them again.

[Dragon]

I had three dreams last night and they were all vivid (this usually happens when I loose focus and fall asleep during meditation like I did last night).

First dream was a cats vs digs dreams. I don't remember any details but at the end the dogs and cats were working together for the CIA.

The second dream was the most complex of the night (cats vs. dogs was the longest).

In this one my family is taking a big vacation with two sets of grandparents. I didn't have my stuff in the car and they started leaving so I irrationally started freaking out (I don't believe I would've done this in real life). I go outside and there is a car there but it doesn't have enough room for my stuff so we call the other two cars back to find room for my stuff. Well two come back but one of them wasn't the one we expected to come back (it wasn't one of the original three cars) and they all have no room.

So they all leave to find more room and one of the cars come back again except it drove up the dirt hill beside my house for some reason and it miraculously makes it (it's not a 4x4 car) and it keeps going.

So I sit out front with the balloon animals my mom left set up outside why she goes on vacation (I don't know why she would leave something she likes and enjoys so much outside on a long vacation). Then one get a leak, I go over to examine it and as soon as I touch it it pops.

I then go to look at another (the same thing happens). Finally all that's left is her prized polar bear balloon which I manage to get inside just before my moms car comes back (wait... she doesn't drive in reality) and she runs in and helps me save her balloon and we find out that one more survived (a penguin).

I left many things out of the above dream. Just too complicated to explain it all.

The last one was weird. I think I might have had the below dream before.

I start out watching in 3rd person a indoor ninja training building. It is very sleek and modern on the inside and the most experienced ninja is talking about how new recruits like to try the obstacles way above their skill level to the runner of the building (a slightly overweight middle aged woman).

Then a chubby kid that resembles my friend from real life goeas up to the curtain that makes up the back wall and starts pulling it back saying "Hey, whats in here?"

Then I am no longer observing, I am now the experienced ninja.

The manager goes running to the new recruit and I follow at a slower pace behind her and she's yelling "NO! Don't open that!". But it's too late. The curtain has already been fully pulled back.

It revealed a rather old and dusty looking room full of inflatable equipment. It is a rather small area and I move around itt looking around. I don't realize it now but the manager is sobbing and the new recruit is just standing there watching for awhile before he joins me in looking around.

When I step onto this bouncy wrestling arena or something we hear it. It sounds like a kid quietly sobbing. Then he is wailing. I go to the manager and ask "What is that ungodly sound!".

And she replies "Twenty years ago a child was lost in here and was never found.".

Then me and the new guy go poking around some more and we here a child's voice sob "HELP ME! I'm hungry. I want my mommy".

The new recruit then burst out at the manager "He's still here! Why can't we help him!" and she replied "You forget, he was lost twenty years ago. What you hear now is the wailing death."

The dream at this point was too strong and vivid for me to handle anymore so I woke myself up (a handy ability to have).

Upon thinking about it later I realize that if I had continued and found the source of the sound I would've been killed. I think the chubby woman might have been some form of slave for it.

It wouldn't have been scary but this dream was terribly vivid. My conscious mind was freaking out even if my subconcious (the ninja in this case) was calm and collected (I'm pretty sure the ninja wanted to leave and never see the place again while for some reason I just wanted to keep exploring at the time).

This dream made me shake just thinking about it.

[Dragon]

I haven't been dreaming often. It angers me.

[Dragon]

-Victory Dance-

I remembered my dream from last night. In it I met Morts boyfriend.

[Dragon]

Old dream. From years ago.

I believe it was one of the dreams where I was escaping from the witch (now I'm told by Sapph is my astral mother).

As I'm getting away on a black dragon I get a feeling out of nowhere that I should be the dragon. So I will myself to become the dragon and I do.

I remembered this dream at one point last year also. I was at my friend reinfire's house and he was playing World of Warcraft. In it he was riding a black dragon in the same kind of misty/gray environment.

I remember it fairly often actually. Maybe I'm supposed to remember it for some reason.

[Dragon]

Last night I had a barrage of dreams. I usually don't remember many but last night I had three... or was it four? That's the problem with having to wait to post until tonight. I've forgotten a lot.

First dream, basically I'm trying to get through this gate in a hillside with one guard in front of it. The setting is forestey and serene. The colors are vivid and full. Everything I saw I saw in 200% clarity. Basically I ended up going on a long journey and I find a tool of some sort that can ward of the guard. I go back and throw it at him; nothing happens. So I decided to just open the gate; so I did, and something came charging out (I'm not sure what) and I ran. I jumped into the sea and swam but there was like a barrier so I had to swim close to shore. Then it ended.

The next one was pretty much the same setting except it was around my house and it was much more wooded then it is in real life. In it I'm running from some group of people and I'm with my friend D. I slide down a hill behind a fence at my house and hide in the bushes with D behind the fence. But D won't crouch he just stands there and I started trying to get him to crouch and I nudge the chain-link fence a little and they come over to investigate. So we go down the hillside and I hide in some brush and D stands behind one perfectly visible but the one that comes looking doesn't see him and D suddenly appears behind him and snaps his neck. We go farther down the hill to this cement structure with the open side we came in and a back side with windows and a tunnel to the right facing the back wall. You can't see through the woods because of the brush on the other side. We go into the tunnel and we see this Golem (lord of the rings) like creature except it's more humanoid. D fights it off and I find its treasure so I can lure it into the trap. I lead it down my driveway (All the other houses and the main road in this dream are all just non-existent except one of my neighbors) on my bike and a skip to a halt and jump off. Three kids (my brother and the twins my grandma babysits) are waiting. Two are in a tree alcove and one is in a bush across from there. I kong vault down a step (this area is laid out in very wide steps downward for some reason) ands hide because I know they have the weapon that will destroy it and the treasure I stole will destroy the bad group I mentioned in the begging. Dream over.

I don't remember what the other dream was about anymore. I'm shocked at how well I remember these two though. ^^

Sorry I haven't been on. I have so much to read. I've been busy this week and I'm gone almost all of Saturday. Not much sleep for me this week.

[Dragon]

In last nights dream (it was a long one) I got out of school and my Dad was waiting for me which he usually doesn't because I walk. Turns out we moved to Irving street and it was a surprise. I was so excited because now I could finally have my own room. The house was medium sized and was furnished with old fashioned looking stuff. Also the house was next door to my friend CP's house. I was about to go over to tell him but I looked out the window and he was around coming over. So I answered the door and invited him in. We talked and played old school Atari games.

Then after he left I sorted my stuff out and took it upstairs to my room. Not much happened after that but it was a epic/intense dream. I ended up somehow blocked in a pantry by a girl I hardly know and have never particularly liked and she was questioning me about random stuff and it was kinda turning me on because she was obviously teasing me. (please note she was outside the pantry not in there with me the door was slightly open)

You might also want to know that I'm bisexual and CP is the guy I like.I'm currently more interested in a girl I really felt natural with today though. ^^

[Dragon]

She was in my dream last night.

I was graduating from school and getting ready to move to go to college in Medford Oregon (weird, not the place I actually have in mind).

I was living in my own apartment which was weird because I won't be 18 until after graduation. Maybe something will push me to get emancipated.

I had gathered all my school stuff in my Honors English 9 classroom and was packing it up. Why there? I thought after I woke up. Probably because it's a mutual place we share.

She was packing her stuff up too. When I saw her there I felt a great pang in my stomach from guilt and I realized now was my last chance ever. I felt like it was destined that I would never meet her again if I didn't do something now. She glanced up at me and looked for a few seconds then continued.

I've never even talked to her. But I've known she's the one since December of my 8th grade year (currently 9th).

I started walking slowly towards her and I was almost at her side when the dream ended.

I had no idea what I was going to do or say. I was just going to do it. I felt in the dream that I could live without her but I knew there would always be a void in my heart if I never even gave it a shot.

To be in a relationship I need a deep emotional and spiritual connection. I feel me and her have that even without talking.

She is the only girl I ever think I could feel that for. Without her I might be completely gay and even that wouldn't have much fulfillment for me if I never gave it a try with her. If I even tried and it failed I would feel at least a little successful and the hole in my heart wouldn't be as deep.

[Dragon]

Last night in my dream I was invited to a vampire conference.

Some how I got my family to take me there and my dad came into the conference room once and couldn't figure it out at first then he flipped out and ran.

I mainly just sat in the shadows on a upper balcony (the house was pretty destroyed) and watched.

There were vampires from all eras of existence there.

Not sure if this was dream or AP.

[Dragon]

I plan on practicing projection again ASAP. I need to become disciplined again and dedicate my self at least three-four nights a week with meditation four-five nights a week.

[Dragon]

I'm getting closer to getting my dream retention back. I had three dreams one night two of which I could remember for an hour after waking and I could still remember bits and peices later in the day.

[Dragon]

So you know that girl that used to be in my dreams constantly? Now that I've started meditating and opening my third eye again she is returning in ways stronger than before. Problem is is that I'm currently in a relationship where I'm not sure if I'm truly happy and this girl returning kind of seems to confirm that. Please not these dreams happened one night after the other.

So first dream was actually about my current girlfriend. She wore something really revealing that I wasn't comfortable with and I got mad at her because I've told her I'm not comfortable with that. Don't remember much more from that night.

Second night I was a dog that could turn into a human and there were others of us. Me and one other got thrown in a type of jail for no good reason and he managed to escape while in dog form and I followed him (we were also arrested in dog form) and we joined a group who we ran away with and we came up to some porta-potties in an open shed type thing and some transformed then went in and others went in then transformed into humans. Turns out the girl I so often used to mention was the caretaker and me and her talked like we have never talked in a dream before and I admitted how I've always felt and she said she has felt the same but right now I have something else to deal with and then the rest were done in the bathrooms and we transformed into dogs and left and the dream ended when we were in some type of cave filled mountain and I had just gone out the other side.

Third night was one of those silent dreams she appears in I didn't have a ride to school so I walked onto the street and bumped into her. We just kept walking without talking and eventually she turned down a different road without looking back at me and I just walked on alone. There was also fog in this dream. It grew as we got farther from my house.

[Dragon]

I have been here now for over four years and two months. Over the course of approximately the last three and a half years my self-discipline I valued throughout my childhood has steadily dissipated. Mainly for environmental reasons. We all know how most high schoolers are, and I've been surrounded by them for the last four years. =)

I have been thinking a lot lately about how soft, undisciplined, and unmotivated I have gotten in all facets of my life. It saddens me greatly that I've lost what I once had so naturally as a child. It separated me from most other kids, but I was never really bothered by that.

In short, I plan on seeking to restore those skills I once had such a great hold on. Both to better myself, and so that I am once again able to do useful things for others and be an activist rather than just another person who "spreads the word".

With high school graduation fast approaching, I cannot think of a better time to begin a new, and better chapter in my life.

I am posting this here because I figure my spiritual discipline is a good place to start because meditation I know will also improve discipline in general, also because I know I already have support from here for building that discipline, and finally because maybe if I start with my spiritual side it will give me faith in strengthening the rest of myself as well.

I figure it will do this both through my own common sense and time and time again we see great people in history who are guided by their faith and when they get knocked down and they need picked up they turn to faith in something to build themselves back up.

[Dragon]

The good news is that I'm dreaming again. Almost explosively at that. I've had intense dreams for the last three or four nights now.

What is catching me off guard about them is that the all feature a girl I used to have a minor crush on.

It catches me off guard because the girl I'm in love with now? I can count how many of my dreams she has been in on two hands with a good portion of those dreams involving conflict between us.

This other girl I used to dream about before I started dating my current relationship.

I am happy in this relationship, why are my dreams trying to push me away from it?

[Dragon]

Recollection of this dream may not be perfect, it occurred the night before last and my dream recollection isn't back to where it used to be yet.

In my dream a coworker was having some sort of issue in her life. I was managing that day and she was running the front counter. Well she went home after her shift but after I get off my shift she texts me saying she needs help, that she needs somebody to talk to. So she gave me directions to her place and I change clothes at work before leaving and go straight there after clocking out.

If it is of any significance I will note that this dream had colour in it. (My dreams aren't usually black and white)

I don't remember the arrival, or most of the apartment. I remember looking through the door to her room and then going in, the room had a purple and lilac colour scheme to it, and a good portion of of the room was filled with the bed itself. Well I sat beside the bed in some kind of chair (beanbag?) and she sat on the bed. We talk about the issues going on in her life most the night and she cried a few times. Eventually, she told me that she wanted to take a bubble bath to help calm down and she wanted me to go with her to keep talking to her. So after she got in the bath and was covered I went in and we kept talking.

This part gets really fuzzy.

She either wanted held or it was some sort of dream inside of the dream. A small scene. I just recall laying in the bath with her and holding her while she calmed down and the dream ended.

Now back to waking life. The day after I had that her parents who live in town came to work looking for her. I worry that this may have been precognitive and I hope that she is okay, even though in real life we've hardly talked and we haven't known each other long.