Firespirit's Near-Nightly Excursions

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I've had this AP a couple times. In this one, I am in a Victorian-style dress, in the middle of the night, standing in the road, waiting for someone. For some reason, the road has sharp curves in it, and it's densely wooded on either side -- the wood stretches for miles and miles. It seems as though that location was not the original location I was told to wait for someone, it seemed as though I had traveled for several days on foot (my feet were aching like I had), and somehow ended up in this scary woods after dark. I was scared of the usual things a young woman of that time would be scared of in that situation -- highwaymen and rogues, thieves, just bad men in general -- but also ghosts and things of that nature. Every so often, a black coach would come around pulled by black horses. As I heard it coming, I would always hide in the trees, hoping whoever it was inside wouldn't see me.

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This one was quite vivid. I dunno if you'd want to call it a hallucination -- but it was vivid, like I was looking at a photograph or a still movie screen. DISCLAIMER: I was on DXM, and that's something I tried once and never ever ever ever want to do again. I am NOT recommending anyone take that s*** at all; it sucks and it feels like you're going to die. Stay away from it.

There was a picture of this woman sitting in her gold Chevy SUV - it was rainy, looked like it was outside Seattle judging by the background. She was tall, with long hair. There was blood in her hair and blood on her neck and on her chest. She was sitting upright, but the truck was all smashed and the blood was dried. I knew she was dead.

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This was a weird one.

"Go take a shower," said a man in a military dress uniform.

Me and about 3 dozen others all went into this large room -- it was covered in white tile, with a drain, and several shower heads lined up in the ceiling so the entire room could be sprayed. There was a sealed, airtight door off to the corner of one side of the room. I knew something was wrong as soon as I saw the door and the small window-like thing. I was extremely frightened once the military officer went into that back room and shut the door, and also when we were told to keep our clothes on for some strange reason.

Then the toxic gas came, and I remember feeling very light-headed. The view out the window was some brick buildings surrounded by a barbwire fence -- like those pictures you see of WWII concentration camps.

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Today I had a past life regression done and let me just say that it was hard to pick which lifetime to start at. I only had time for two medieval ones (I lived a lot more than that even in that time period). I'll post them as soon as I get less busy!

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OK, here's Life 1 from my past-life regression...

I was dressed in this church-going attire, sitting next to my family in church. It was a medieval, gothy-looking church. We were kneeling in a pew, I remember looking at a statue of Jesus, then looking over at my family (who all had red hair and blue eyes), family ended up dying of the Black Death and prayed to God to save them but they suffered and died anyhow as did the whole town. This was in Northern Spain. I survived and lived as a hermit in the countryside, poor but happy, though I eventually died of malnourishment as I had little to eat.

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Oops... the lessons I learned from that life were: how to travel independently, how to make things work after devastation, peace w/ myself - OK w/ being alone, learned to trust myself more than I do others.

Brought to this lifetime: self-confidence, ability to provide for myself and manage on my own

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Life 2...

This one occurred in England and Northern France. I usually wore a white headress and a scarlet gown. In this one, I was a duchess who lived a lavish life with my husband, a famous knight (whose name was Arianhrod in that life, happens to be T in this life). Tried hard to please him, his personality wasn't much different than in this life ~ very moody; could be sadistic. Had everything, and concerned myself with minute details, such as redecorating the castle, physical appearance, and throwing parties. Tried my hardest at everything, and everyone (esp. the husband), gave me good feedback but I never thought I was doing well enough since I had nothing to compare it to since we were isolated from the rest of society. I was quite bored in this life, but was constantly yelling at the kids who were rambunctious - Thomas, Juliana, Victor, and Emily. Spent much time with horses. Died attempting to save son in river -- garmets caught around me as I struggled to swim against current.

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Lessons from Life 2: Always make sure you're stimulated intellectually, have exposure to worldly pursuits, don't wear self down w/ trivial matters, don't try to please everyone (remembered quarrels w/ my family at the parties) because it's impossible

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Last night I dreamt I was back in Shippensburg ~ which is where I originally intended to go to college, even though it's some 1000 miles from my home. (To make matters confusing, this involves two Bens - both of which I know in real life, one of which I dated). In this dream, we were in a bar, and the Ben which I dated was really trying to control me, and was being downright mean to me. The other Ben, who's real humorous but would do anything to protect his friends, just plain ignored me and did nothing to save me even though the other attempted to spike my drink. He would just talk about other things, even though he saw the other guy spike my beer. This felt real groggy and I felt out of sorts during the dream... maybe it was simply a lucid dream and not an AP?

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OK, this one I've been having for quite sometime (and, for some reason, consciously).

It seems this one occurred sometime in 16th or 17th Century France. For some reason, I'm quite inclined toward French culture, but I haven't been to France on the physical plane... yet. I am of Royal blood, and in this one, I'm fairly young, 30 or so, and I'm dressed in the typical French dress of the time. I'm living (yet again) in some sort of French manor, with very posh surroundings (though this isn't medieval like the other one), again with a very attractive and wealthy husband. I haven't seen any children as I have yet to explore this period further, though I can sense that there will be some soon. (It's annoying because this one is begging to be explored, though I don't have time, because my life on this plane has suddenly become stressful, crammed, and chaotic). The thing is, why is this any different than the last one? At least, at first glance, the life lessons here seem similiar. Am I that slow of a learner? I mean, right now, I just aimlessly spend my time wandering about the house, basically in awe of all the nifty, ornate French decorations.

I'll elaborate when I have more time.

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I had a brief AP recently where I was living in Victorian England, and all my children were dying of measles. We lived out in the country, so this was a shock to both my husband and I. We were informed by one of the servant girls- a fair complected, strawberry blonde girl. I remember her being awfully somber and one kid - a son - had to be quarintined and bedridden before he died. We thought the others would make it, but only one survived.

What's with this child theme? I'm not to keen on getting pregnant in this life til I'm at least 30! And why on Earth did I end up in WI of all places this time?

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I had an Egyptian time travel a few years back. I remember how at home I felt in Egypt ~ especially in the desert. I don't remember much - at the time I was being enclosed in a tomb, treasures around me. What I remember most was my soul briefly going to the afterlife (I could see my tomb - quite ornate, with heiroglyphics and treasures around me). There was a specific heiroglyphic that shows how the soul joins the afterlife, and I remember seeing that. My tomb is encased in a hill, but it's not quite at the place archeologists speculate. More than likely, the tomb won't be found.

I also remember kind of a gung-ho/bring-it-on sort of attitude about the rest of my lives (I'll say for certain I haven't found all of them, there are so many)

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There are so many lives I still need to post about, but I don't have time! Dang! lol. I'm gonna drift away from APs and past lives for tonight though.

I don't know what this was.. it was probably the typical athlete's I-made-it-to-the-championships-and-screwed-up dream. Being a rider, both were equestrian-related. In one, reining had become an Olympic sport and in order to make it on the US Reining team I had to win one last competition in Oklahoma. Of course that didn't happen because I forgot the pattern in the middle of the arena! In the second, I was in some high-level showjumping competition, and my horse jumped poorly and knocked down a few poles, then to make matters worse I fell off during one of the jumps too!

Anyone else ever had these sports screw-up dreams?

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I apologize to you guys if there's gonna be a gap in logging here. I'm in an extremely difficult situation right now and find it pretty difficult to sleep at night. Please forgive me.

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OK, so I'll *finally* post one of my Egyptian ones... jeez lol

In fact, I did have one where I did meet Sapphire (see his post about it). I think this might be part of that AP, but I'm not sure. In this one, Sapphire was sitting as pharoah on his throne inside his palace. He sat real still, but I think this was due to the fact they just sat this way as it was customary. I remember feeling very intimidated, but in a good, I'm-attracted-to-you sort of way. I think this was before we were married, or maybe it was just because I respected him so. In his hand, he held an ornate scepter (I remember it seemed snake-like and was made out of gold) and was he was dressed in his pharoah's clothes. His throne was on a bit of a platform, and there were two rooms behind but off to the side of him on either side. To my left was a large window with a balcony looking out over to the Nile. He had the typical Egyptian eyeliner on. It seemed that there was some sort of incense burning, like a mix of myrrh and sandalwood. He beckoned me over to him and I was downright afraid, like when your supervisor of supervisors calls you over to their office and you don't know what for. I went over to him and he looked at me for a moment and then took my hand and kissed me... that kiss was very passionate and dominating. I'm assuming from this AP that he was well-respected and well-feared, though he seemed he could be kind as well.

There are other Egyptian APs, but I'm trying to do class orientation here at the same time!

See, I didn't forget!