Post by angel10023 on Jun 6, 2018 2:54:05 GMT -4
Hi all,
I came across this forum after seeing a book written by Sapphire called Exorcism. I am demon possessed and in bad bad shape and I'm just putting it out there.... if anyone can lead me to someone who possesses true supernatural powers that might be able to help me...I would very much appreciate it. I'll tell you my story...
A few years ago I had a completely normal life. I was 35 had a great career, good friends, traveled, volunteered with rescues... I was really spiritual and I loved God, went to church on Sundays and was involved in a few different spiritual communities, meditated, did yoga. I had a good life and a good head on my shoulders. I was a good person with a kind compassionate heart for everyone I met. I truly wanted to make the world a better place. I was the kind of person that had compassion for everyone and everything...but I was really naive to the evil in this world.
I was approached by a young woman in a shopping mall who claimed to be a psychic and she told me she had a message for me from God. She knew some very personal things about me and I was wowed by her. She was young, pretty, had an adorable baby with her, and was super friendly so no red flags went up. She gave me her card and I decided to go to her for a formal reading. At the reading she gave me a crystal to take home with me as a 'gift,' telling me it was for protection and that it would soak up negative energy. I went home and put the crystal on my bedside table like she instructed, and honestly, didn't think much more about it. A few nights later I watched in horror as a real demon came out of the crystal and attacked me. I had never seen a demon before and I couldn't believe what I was seeing. It literally attacked me wrapping it's claws around my neck, physically choking me. It felt like death...like every negative emotion times 1000. It's energy was so strong, it made my eyes water and I felt sick inside. I called on Jesus and prayed, it disappeared from sight but didn't go away. I could feel it all around me. I contacted the psychic who gave me the crystal and there was ALOT of back and forth. For a while she pretended to be my friend and acted like she was trying to help me. She knew WAY too much about demons...more than any person should. Over time, her true colors came out and she wanted me to give her large sums of cash and personal possessions as a sacrifice to get rid of the demon. She bragged about how she had the power to put people in mental hospitals. She then sent more demons to attack me.
I was attacked without mercy day and night. They were just throwing themselves at me trying to break through my aura. I was knocked down to the ground, pushed, scratched, raped, even thrown up against a wall with my feet off the ground. I was just praying and praying to God. I had my priest come out and bless the house. I even had mass said in my house. I tried everything you could imagine. Holy Water, Blessed Salt, Incense, Copal, Frankensene, Sage, Charged Crystals, Blessed Objects and Medals, stone jewelry, Crosses, I even drank Holy Water everyday, bathed in it with exorcised salt, slept with the bible over me, and had gregorian chant music playing all day and night. While this all would have probably been enough for a smaller entity to leave, the demons just laughed at me. I would sing to God, Praise Him, Command the things to go....they never left and I was terrified. Long story short they started mounting to me like leeches and that's when I started to hear crazy thoughts of unbelief against God, Jesus, Mary, the Angels...you name it I heard it. Every time I went to pray, they would twist my words and put thoughts in my head so I wouldn't believe in God. I just kept fighting the thoughts and praying. The thoughts stared to become so overwhelming I was getting confused. Praying to Jesus was like walking through a mine field. I don't want to write too much about this, but they ended up violently and forcibly entering my body. I screamed out to God, but I could do nothing to stop it. It was horrific. There is one that entered my heart area and has drained all of my soul's life force energy. I can no longer feel human emotions or love. There are quite a few demons in and around me, but the one that has been the worst is the one wrapped around and inside my head. It has now taken over my mind. Before my mind got so badly over taken, i was able to pray to Christ and bring down massive amounts of His energy to flush these things out of me. They would then just come right back in, but at least I could fight them then. I went through Catholic exorcism which is just prayer and I had times when we were all praying and I felt either an angel or massive amounts of God energy enter me and fight with these things. I would get thrown around and convulse for hours at a time while the two energies fought inside of me. Sometimes one or two demons would be removed, only for them to come back with friends a few days later. I sat in prayer for 8-9 hours everyday trying to get Angels to come down and help me. Sometimes they would come and just pat me on the head and fill me with love to comfort me. I would call in Arch Angel Michael and his energy would rip through the front of my body and come out the back stretching the demonic energy out of me as they clung to me. My spine would twist, my neck would get thrown back and people who witnessed this said it looked like the skin was getting pulled back from my neck and face. I would do this fighting all the confusing thoughts...'It's not Michael, just Energy, maybe it's God, not Michael, prove it's michael, angels aren't real, prove their real, can you see michael, if it was michael why wouldn't he just come'....this is the stuff i had to hear over and over again as I was praying. As soon as I would get confused and loose my train of thought, Michael's energy would immediately stop coming and the demons would snap right back into me. I did it over and over again and had real bruises all over my body from this...I just couldn't hold the thought long enough to get His energy to fully rip these things out of me. This battle went on and on like this for a few years. I never gave up. I would start my day with mass in the morning, eat, and just go into prayer. There were times when I just tried ignoring these things hoping they would go away, but they never stopped. Every time I would find my power and gain ground, another demon would come along and get inside of me. At night I had horrific visions of what I can only describe to be hell, I had a terrifying vision of Jesus being nailed to the cross, sometimes Mother Mary would visit me b/c I prayed to her a lot.
It got to the point where my mind was filled with so many hateful confusing thoughts against God, jesus, the Angels, Mary. I would just go to the last place in my head and try to visualize the cross and I just repeated over and over Jesus cover me with your blood. I would feel His love come but without my full mind I could only bring in a little of His loving energy...not enough to push these things out and away from me. One day I was doing this and one last demon came. I saw him as a black cloud floating over me and i cried out to Jesus. I said NO, but it entered me anyway. At that moment, I completely lost my ability to visualize in my mind and I don't know how but it was working with the other demons and my mind fully filled up with SO many confusing, hateful thoughts against God..there was no place to go in my mind anymore to connect with God, believe in Him, or pray. When I try to pray now or read my bible, i can't even get past the first sentence. My mind is literally filled with confusing thoughts as to why it's not true. Every single word is picked apart, sometimes even before I read it or think it. In addition to that I have to listen to evil looping thoughts all day long that NEVER stop. I can't even hold a normal conversation with another human being, go for a walk, or watch tv. I can't feel love or human emotions and I am being squeezed and suffocated in terrible pain in and around my entire body. The ONLY thing that would give me temporary relief was when I could pray and channel God's energy to push these things out of my chakras. Since I can't pray anymore and connect to God. I get no relief. Just like that, I have been completely cut off from God. I don't see Jesus or Mary anymore in my dreams. I can't get angels or light beings to help me anymore. I can't even believe that angels are real anymore. Without my mind and faith and belief no one will help me. The demons have formed some kind of hard casing in and around my entire body. Many many people have prayed over me, but their prayers do nothing to penetrate this casing. The only thing that used to work a little is when I could believe and bring down God's love myself. The Catholic church has stopped doing exorcism on me because they no longer work. My priest said if I can't believe in Jesus, there is nothing he can do to help me.
I have been to healers, Shamans, protestant ministers, deliverances, internet exorcists who claimed to travel the astral and have divine powers....at this point I have tried it all. I used to be a beautiful, kind person. Now I am evil. I have evil thoughts that consume me and my heart is literally stone. I am living in utter torment. I still cry out to God, but without my mind and faith, it does nothing. He can't help me. I still try everyday though thinking it might be different. I don't want to give up fighting. I can't believe that I'll never feel love again or enjoy the simple human emotion of laughter. I can't believe that there is no chance for me. That I have been condemned for all of eternity because I was stupid enough to bring a rock into my house. Many people have done much worse than me and were not attacked to the point I have been. I have been attacked on EVERY single level possible. Even my exorcist priest said he's never seen anyone's faith and mind get attacked to the extent I have..and this is a man who has witnessed multiple people levitate. He was even able to free those people. If I could feel the human emotion of anger, I would be angry. I would be SO angry, but even this has been taken from me. AND that girl is still out there doing this to other people and getting away with it.
I, also, want to let the skeptics that are reading this know that I was required to seek out psychiatric help in order to qualify for Catholic exorcism. I went through rigorous testing and evaluations. I saw 5 different non religious psychiatrists and psychologists and tried different medications and therapies. It did NOTHING to help at all and I was really hoping that medication would give me some kind of relief. I even had physical tests, MRI, CT Scans, and bloodwork which all came up normal. I was diagnosed with DID (the scientific diagnosis for possession disorder). Most therapists, even if they don't believe in it, are very aware that this phenom exists. They have all different scientific explanations to explain the evil looping thoughts and the feeling of suffocation in my body...which is all BS...but they can't explain how I was thrown up against a wall and lifted off of the ground by an invisible force. They'll just say that since they weren't there to witness it they can't prove that it happened either. That maybe I just imagined it. Let me tell you something...when you go through what I've been through you WISH that you had imagined it. I wish everyday that what I'm going through isn't real. If I could go crawl into a hole somewhere and hide...trust me I'd be there. Jesus wasn't kidding when he said these things come only to steal, kill, and destroy.....and they LIE. They have filled my head with SO many lies and twisted truths, I don't even know up from down anymore. They are very intelligent creatures and they have thousands of years of experience knowing how to twist truths to confuse a person. These creatures don't have a heart or a soul, they are made up of pure evil negative energy and are the complete opposite of God energy. My advice to anyone reading this is you NEVER want to open a door to allow these things into your life. Getting possessed is worse than death. I wish everyday that the girl that did to me had killed me instead. I have met many people through this experience who's lives like mine were totally destroyed by these creatures and like me they were all good people who made stupid mistakes messing around in different forms of spiritualism. There are some truly evil people in this world that practice black magic. It is VERY real and you don't have to believe in it to be a victim. It is not as prevalent in the US I think because most people here come from a Christian background, my encounter with this girl was really a freak happening, but in other countries it is an epidemic. If you know of anyone that practices the dark arts, my advice is to stay away from them. I've actually met people who got possessed because their significant other dabbled...they weren't even the ones practicing but became victims by association. Just stay FAR away from all that stuff. Trust me there are just demons waiting for you to open that door.
So I won't say much more, but I am just posting on different boards and putting it out there at this point. I am desperate. I know there is very little chance I can be helped, but if there is a single person on this earth that can help me I am determined to find that person. I KNOW in the spiritual realms it is ALL about belief. The demons that attacked me know this and have used that against me. They will not allow me to believe in anything that might be of help to me. It is a mental war that I have lost my power to fight. The thoughts just come in so fast and they are all subconscious, I can't even really hear them clearly anymore to fight them. I have read stories of people going to shamans and getting healed and having smaller spirits leave their body..some of these people were skeptics...so I have to rest on that..that someone might just be able to help me. It is the only thing that is keeping me going. Anyway, I will stop now. Thank you for reading this. My email is aruple25@aol.com. Thanks - Angela
I came across this forum after seeing a book written by Sapphire called Exorcism. I am demon possessed and in bad bad shape and I'm just putting it out there.... if anyone can lead me to someone who possesses true supernatural powers that might be able to help me...I would very much appreciate it. I'll tell you my story...
A few years ago I had a completely normal life. I was 35 had a great career, good friends, traveled, volunteered with rescues... I was really spiritual and I loved God, went to church on Sundays and was involved in a few different spiritual communities, meditated, did yoga. I had a good life and a good head on my shoulders. I was a good person with a kind compassionate heart for everyone I met. I truly wanted to make the world a better place. I was the kind of person that had compassion for everyone and everything...but I was really naive to the evil in this world.
I was approached by a young woman in a shopping mall who claimed to be a psychic and she told me she had a message for me from God. She knew some very personal things about me and I was wowed by her. She was young, pretty, had an adorable baby with her, and was super friendly so no red flags went up. She gave me her card and I decided to go to her for a formal reading. At the reading she gave me a crystal to take home with me as a 'gift,' telling me it was for protection and that it would soak up negative energy. I went home and put the crystal on my bedside table like she instructed, and honestly, didn't think much more about it. A few nights later I watched in horror as a real demon came out of the crystal and attacked me. I had never seen a demon before and I couldn't believe what I was seeing. It literally attacked me wrapping it's claws around my neck, physically choking me. It felt like death...like every negative emotion times 1000. It's energy was so strong, it made my eyes water and I felt sick inside. I called on Jesus and prayed, it disappeared from sight but didn't go away. I could feel it all around me. I contacted the psychic who gave me the crystal and there was ALOT of back and forth. For a while she pretended to be my friend and acted like she was trying to help me. She knew WAY too much about demons...more than any person should. Over time, her true colors came out and she wanted me to give her large sums of cash and personal possessions as a sacrifice to get rid of the demon. She bragged about how she had the power to put people in mental hospitals. She then sent more demons to attack me.
I was attacked without mercy day and night. They were just throwing themselves at me trying to break through my aura. I was knocked down to the ground, pushed, scratched, raped, even thrown up against a wall with my feet off the ground. I was just praying and praying to God. I had my priest come out and bless the house. I even had mass said in my house. I tried everything you could imagine. Holy Water, Blessed Salt, Incense, Copal, Frankensene, Sage, Charged Crystals, Blessed Objects and Medals, stone jewelry, Crosses, I even drank Holy Water everyday, bathed in it with exorcised salt, slept with the bible over me, and had gregorian chant music playing all day and night. While this all would have probably been enough for a smaller entity to leave, the demons just laughed at me. I would sing to God, Praise Him, Command the things to go....they never left and I was terrified. Long story short they started mounting to me like leeches and that's when I started to hear crazy thoughts of unbelief against God, Jesus, Mary, the Angels...you name it I heard it. Every time I went to pray, they would twist my words and put thoughts in my head so I wouldn't believe in God. I just kept fighting the thoughts and praying. The thoughts stared to become so overwhelming I was getting confused. Praying to Jesus was like walking through a mine field. I don't want to write too much about this, but they ended up violently and forcibly entering my body. I screamed out to God, but I could do nothing to stop it. It was horrific. There is one that entered my heart area and has drained all of my soul's life force energy. I can no longer feel human emotions or love. There are quite a few demons in and around me, but the one that has been the worst is the one wrapped around and inside my head. It has now taken over my mind. Before my mind got so badly over taken, i was able to pray to Christ and bring down massive amounts of His energy to flush these things out of me. They would then just come right back in, but at least I could fight them then. I went through Catholic exorcism which is just prayer and I had times when we were all praying and I felt either an angel or massive amounts of God energy enter me and fight with these things. I would get thrown around and convulse for hours at a time while the two energies fought inside of me. Sometimes one or two demons would be removed, only for them to come back with friends a few days later. I sat in prayer for 8-9 hours everyday trying to get Angels to come down and help me. Sometimes they would come and just pat me on the head and fill me with love to comfort me. I would call in Arch Angel Michael and his energy would rip through the front of my body and come out the back stretching the demonic energy out of me as they clung to me. My spine would twist, my neck would get thrown back and people who witnessed this said it looked like the skin was getting pulled back from my neck and face. I would do this fighting all the confusing thoughts...'It's not Michael, just Energy, maybe it's God, not Michael, prove it's michael, angels aren't real, prove their real, can you see michael, if it was michael why wouldn't he just come'....this is the stuff i had to hear over and over again as I was praying. As soon as I would get confused and loose my train of thought, Michael's energy would immediately stop coming and the demons would snap right back into me. I did it over and over again and had real bruises all over my body from this...I just couldn't hold the thought long enough to get His energy to fully rip these things out of me. This battle went on and on like this for a few years. I never gave up. I would start my day with mass in the morning, eat, and just go into prayer. There were times when I just tried ignoring these things hoping they would go away, but they never stopped. Every time I would find my power and gain ground, another demon would come along and get inside of me. At night I had horrific visions of what I can only describe to be hell, I had a terrifying vision of Jesus being nailed to the cross, sometimes Mother Mary would visit me b/c I prayed to her a lot.
It got to the point where my mind was filled with so many hateful confusing thoughts against God, jesus, the Angels, Mary. I would just go to the last place in my head and try to visualize the cross and I just repeated over and over Jesus cover me with your blood. I would feel His love come but without my full mind I could only bring in a little of His loving energy...not enough to push these things out and away from me. One day I was doing this and one last demon came. I saw him as a black cloud floating over me and i cried out to Jesus. I said NO, but it entered me anyway. At that moment, I completely lost my ability to visualize in my mind and I don't know how but it was working with the other demons and my mind fully filled up with SO many confusing, hateful thoughts against God..there was no place to go in my mind anymore to connect with God, believe in Him, or pray. When I try to pray now or read my bible, i can't even get past the first sentence. My mind is literally filled with confusing thoughts as to why it's not true. Every single word is picked apart, sometimes even before I read it or think it. In addition to that I have to listen to evil looping thoughts all day long that NEVER stop. I can't even hold a normal conversation with another human being, go for a walk, or watch tv. I can't feel love or human emotions and I am being squeezed and suffocated in terrible pain in and around my entire body. The ONLY thing that would give me temporary relief was when I could pray and channel God's energy to push these things out of my chakras. Since I can't pray anymore and connect to God. I get no relief. Just like that, I have been completely cut off from God. I don't see Jesus or Mary anymore in my dreams. I can't get angels or light beings to help me anymore. I can't even believe that angels are real anymore. Without my mind and faith and belief no one will help me. The demons have formed some kind of hard casing in and around my entire body. Many many people have prayed over me, but their prayers do nothing to penetrate this casing. The only thing that used to work a little is when I could believe and bring down God's love myself. The Catholic church has stopped doing exorcism on me because they no longer work. My priest said if I can't believe in Jesus, there is nothing he can do to help me.
I have been to healers, Shamans, protestant ministers, deliverances, internet exorcists who claimed to travel the astral and have divine powers....at this point I have tried it all. I used to be a beautiful, kind person. Now I am evil. I have evil thoughts that consume me and my heart is literally stone. I am living in utter torment. I still cry out to God, but without my mind and faith, it does nothing. He can't help me. I still try everyday though thinking it might be different. I don't want to give up fighting. I can't believe that I'll never feel love again or enjoy the simple human emotion of laughter. I can't believe that there is no chance for me. That I have been condemned for all of eternity because I was stupid enough to bring a rock into my house. Many people have done much worse than me and were not attacked to the point I have been. I have been attacked on EVERY single level possible. Even my exorcist priest said he's never seen anyone's faith and mind get attacked to the extent I have..and this is a man who has witnessed multiple people levitate. He was even able to free those people. If I could feel the human emotion of anger, I would be angry. I would be SO angry, but even this has been taken from me. AND that girl is still out there doing this to other people and getting away with it.
I, also, want to let the skeptics that are reading this know that I was required to seek out psychiatric help in order to qualify for Catholic exorcism. I went through rigorous testing and evaluations. I saw 5 different non religious psychiatrists and psychologists and tried different medications and therapies. It did NOTHING to help at all and I was really hoping that medication would give me some kind of relief. I even had physical tests, MRI, CT Scans, and bloodwork which all came up normal. I was diagnosed with DID (the scientific diagnosis for possession disorder). Most therapists, even if they don't believe in it, are very aware that this phenom exists. They have all different scientific explanations to explain the evil looping thoughts and the feeling of suffocation in my body...which is all BS...but they can't explain how I was thrown up against a wall and lifted off of the ground by an invisible force. They'll just say that since they weren't there to witness it they can't prove that it happened either. That maybe I just imagined it. Let me tell you something...when you go through what I've been through you WISH that you had imagined it. I wish everyday that what I'm going through isn't real. If I could go crawl into a hole somewhere and hide...trust me I'd be there. Jesus wasn't kidding when he said these things come only to steal, kill, and destroy.....and they LIE. They have filled my head with SO many lies and twisted truths, I don't even know up from down anymore. They are very intelligent creatures and they have thousands of years of experience knowing how to twist truths to confuse a person. These creatures don't have a heart or a soul, they are made up of pure evil negative energy and are the complete opposite of God energy. My advice to anyone reading this is you NEVER want to open a door to allow these things into your life. Getting possessed is worse than death. I wish everyday that the girl that did to me had killed me instead. I have met many people through this experience who's lives like mine were totally destroyed by these creatures and like me they were all good people who made stupid mistakes messing around in different forms of spiritualism. There are some truly evil people in this world that practice black magic. It is VERY real and you don't have to believe in it to be a victim. It is not as prevalent in the US I think because most people here come from a Christian background, my encounter with this girl was really a freak happening, but in other countries it is an epidemic. If you know of anyone that practices the dark arts, my advice is to stay away from them. I've actually met people who got possessed because their significant other dabbled...they weren't even the ones practicing but became victims by association. Just stay FAR away from all that stuff. Trust me there are just demons waiting for you to open that door.
So I won't say much more, but I am just posting on different boards and putting it out there at this point. I am desperate. I know there is very little chance I can be helped, but if there is a single person on this earth that can help me I am determined to find that person. I KNOW in the spiritual realms it is ALL about belief. The demons that attacked me know this and have used that against me. They will not allow me to believe in anything that might be of help to me. It is a mental war that I have lost my power to fight. The thoughts just come in so fast and they are all subconscious, I can't even really hear them clearly anymore to fight them. I have read stories of people going to shamans and getting healed and having smaller spirits leave their body..some of these people were skeptics...so I have to rest on that..that someone might just be able to help me. It is the only thing that is keeping me going. Anyway, I will stop now. Thank you for reading this. My email is aruple25@aol.com. Thanks - Angela