Post by krashlanmar on Jan 30, 2008 23:21:56 GMT -4
When I was little, I was very calm. All the other little boys were always running around and crying, but I wouldn't cry too much and I wouldn't run around too much either. I was always calm and always ponderous.
I was very curious, too, just like everyone else. But everyone else ran around being curious, I always thought about everything and walked cautiously.
Even growing up, I was very calm. I was always the quiet one every year in school.
But that's no way to live when you're little. Because I was 'calm' everything I ever had was always on the inside. You know when I was 13 and I talked to people online, they always thought I was 18 or 20, because I was so calm and thoughtful. Now when I'm online, I can tell exactly who is 13, even if they speak in sentences and do not use slang. I guess I was different.
Last year after I left your forum, I started talking to people. I never hung out with anyone outside of school until then. It was senior year of high school. I was 17.
That's when I met Victoria, too.
Anyway, I guess I'm just making up for it... Metal keeps me alive, man. It's like drugs: Sometimes I'm dead tired and I can turn on some metal to get me to wake up. Sometimes I am in that 'hyper' state. I don't have one of those, really, but I'm just so excited but really tired at the same time. So sometimes I'm like that And I can turn on some metal and it relaxes me and I can go to sleep.
It's the best.
Well, I guess it's safe to say that I'm never going to project, then. I guess that's not a problem. I'll still come to the forum and pretend. I'll still post my dreams.
I'm just really disappointed at myself and wit hthe way the universe works.
I was very curious, too, just like everyone else. But everyone else ran around being curious, I always thought about everything and walked cautiously.
Even growing up, I was very calm. I was always the quiet one every year in school.
But that's no way to live when you're little. Because I was 'calm' everything I ever had was always on the inside. You know when I was 13 and I talked to people online, they always thought I was 18 or 20, because I was so calm and thoughtful. Now when I'm online, I can tell exactly who is 13, even if they speak in sentences and do not use slang. I guess I was different.
Last year after I left your forum, I started talking to people. I never hung out with anyone outside of school until then. It was senior year of high school. I was 17.
That's when I met Victoria, too.
Anyway, I guess I'm just making up for it... Metal keeps me alive, man. It's like drugs: Sometimes I'm dead tired and I can turn on some metal to get me to wake up. Sometimes I am in that 'hyper' state. I don't have one of those, really, but I'm just so excited but really tired at the same time. So sometimes I'm like that And I can turn on some metal and it relaxes me and I can go to sleep.
It's the best.
Well, I guess it's safe to say that I'm never going to project, then. I guess that's not a problem. I'll still come to the forum and pretend. I'll still post my dreams.
I'm just really disappointed at myself and wit hthe way the universe works.