Mark930's AP / Dream log

[Mark930]

Just decided to post all my past dream posts, sorry so long

November 15


last night while trying to ap it was hard to me to stay concentrated because people kept walking around the house even though it was late. but after a while I saw this woman walking back and forth probably about 3 or 4 feet from my bed, but the interesting thing was that she was completely made out of white light. She had no facial features that I could tell. later i did have the feeling that my consciences was starting to move away from my body, but was pulled back in, then out again, and back in ....... After this i imagined myself getting out of bed hoping that this would spark the connection, but unsuccessful. I also noticed that for a while i was sleep paralyzed.

This is all i remember...

Questions i still have to ask myself.
1. Who was this light woman?
2. Was she my astral double?
3. How can i silents the background noise?
4. Why am i still having trouble aping i know i have no fears of it.

November 16


Just finished meditating today for 26 minutes.

about halfway through my meditation i started noticing that there was a mostly green light surrounding my body mostly my hands and legs since i was sitting down. then i noticed that the light started looking more like waves, and it was moving towards me and surrounding my body. before it started looking like waves surrounding my body i was thinking that it was my aura because i believe that mine is green. I also noticed that while in theses types of trances whenever i start to notices something new my eyes seem to start fluttering and is hard to keep them closed. Today was also the first time i tried BWG, this seemed to help me get into this state much faster.

November 18


While attempting to AP last night i was really close. After a while not sure how long, I'm going to say an hour. I noticed that i was scratching my face. I then realized that this can not be possible because i was lying completely still. I was then back in my body. This happened once more and same thing. After this i decided to quit and go to bed. I know know that I am getting very close to aping so my goal is to have a successful ap within the next month.

November 21


Last night while trying to ap nothing interesting happened until about a half hour later. I then started wishing that i was in my kitchen to see if i had left my body. For about a tenth of a second i felt that i was in my kitchen, but it did not feel like i was out of my body. I think that i just mind projected to the kitchen.

November 22


Tried to ap last night, got no results. Once thing i did notice is that sometime when i try to ap an hour or so after i start I tend to start getting really hot. Not sure why this is since its fall and should be chili out.

Also I know that my heart was not beating any faster then normal thats another reason why its odd.
theses past few days i have been have dreams about things around the house i did not know we had. like a few days ago i had a dream about a new bottle of ketchup, the next morning i saw that we had a new never opened bottle of ketchup. then last night i had a dream about a box of plan cheerios, this morning i went to have some cereal, and sure enough there was a box of cheerios, but it was the honey nut ones so not exactly as i dreamed. i think that i am having RV in my kitchen. Also most nights that i have been practicing AP i have often thought about my kitchen because it's the middle of the house. Also this past year or year and a half i have been having dreams that have come somewhat true, well at least the main point of the dream came true, but i will get into that later. I think most of these have been RVs. I have one questing can you RV the future. If so then i think all of them were RVs.
November 24


Tried to ap no success, but at one point it felt like i was being pushed or pulled up. I'm guessing that this is the floating feeling.

November 25


Tried to ap again last night, got the same results as last night with the floating feeling. I also tried after a while to imagine myself getting out of bed and standing up, then i noticed that my physical body felt like it was trying to get up. (I know this was not my astral body trying to get up) Then i started to notice this face, and i noticed that the face looked like your average looking "Death" black hooded cloak with a skeleton body. This was very scary, but i then reminded myself that nothing can hurt me while in a trance. My fear then went away and so did he after a while. Death looked a lot like this...


November 27


Tried to ap still no luck but i did notice a strange buzzing sound in my left ear, then another strange sound in my right ear cant really describe the sound. The strange thing was that both times the sounds were only in one ear.

forgot to say that the whole time doing it i kept having theses random twitches and i kept having to caught and clear my throat. This kept me from focusing.

tried to ap, ended up falling asleep. but just before i woke up i had a dream about wishing i could ap, and still no luck

November 29


Meditated for about a half hour nothing interesting happened during it. Once i stopped meditating i remembered an amazing dream that i had.

Just remembered that i also had a dream that i had some amazing TK skills, it felt very real too. I was outside of my work just moving stuff with my mind, and also kind of showing off to people. It was at night I also change the the weather well not really the weather, but i changed it from night to day for about half a second just to prove that i am a "goddess". Maybe this was an ap, but it was not realistic, well maybe it was but it i don't have any TK skills that i know about, and i don't think I can change night to day for a second then back to day. I remembered that i changed it to day for only half a second because i told my boss "I can only change it for a second because it will mess up the world." or something like that. after i changed it he was amazed but still did not believe I was a goddess. mostly because i am a male, and was unsure why i would be on earth. The coolest thing about this dream what that it felt sooooo real, thats why im thinking it was an ap?

December 1


woke up today and remembered a dream i had. All that i remembered was seeing toukee's cat, in a different position then in his picture. don't remember if his cat was alive or if it was just another picture of his cat. I'm not sure if this was a dream or an ap.


December 2


had a strange dream. that i was talking to my mother (deceased) but it was strange because she was put back on earth, like she was rebuilt, she looked the same but badly beaten up from surgery to replace all her organs. although she looked bad she seemed to be very happy. I talked to here for awhile and she told me she was good. She said she was happy to be back. Then i asked, so how was the afterlife? i got no response, but i could tell she was happy.

I now think she was trying to say that she was happier before she was "rebuilt".

what i got out of this dream was to not try and bring someone back after they have passes.

not sure if this was an ap or a dream, im thinking it could have been a mix where i talked to her in ap then had a dream similar and just combined the two.

December 4


Had a dream that i was working, then this hot girl came in. She then started giving me hits that she wanted me to ask her out. So i went up to her and asked her out, she said yes then i hugged her. i then asked for her number and got it. she then asked so do you want my name too? i laughed and said yeah. (This part was very funny ) But right after i got her number i started to become lucid and the dream ended. But it was cool i got her number, too bad i only remember the first 4 numbers or i would try and call. but it would probably not end up being them after all!

December 8


Well theses past few nights i have not been able to remember any of my dreams. It is getting annoying because when i wake up i know that i had a dream but i cant remember any of it. well last night had the same problem, but i did remember 1 thing about it. The only thing that i remembered was looking at my face, not sure if i was looking at myself sleeping or looking into a mirror. I want to say that my eyes were open but i don't remember well enough. Well i was hoping that writing this down would help me remember but no luck.

Edit: Also had a dream that my phone broke. Not sure if this had any meaning or not.

December 9


had a 3 dreams

don't remember the first one but i know i had one, because i be came lucid and woke up.

had one dream that i was getting a bunch of random tattoos the i became lucid and woke up.

next i had the same kind of dream about tattoos but i got a strange Egyptian headdress type tattoo on my head. Once again i became lucid and woke up

I have been noticing every time that i become lucid in a dream i keep waking up, but good thing is that im becoming aware that im dreaming more.

December 12


Had another dream about my mom last night. We talked for awhile, but sadly I can't remember anything that we talked about. I did remember that she looked a lot better then she did the first time i saw here. (posted above). I know sapphire said to try and heal her the next time i saw her. I have no idea whether or not i healed her because I hardly remember any of the dream. But it was nice to see that she looked much better.


Well i decided to post this.

About a week or 2 ago i had a dream about a beautiful girl that is in one of my classes. So anyways, I met up with her late at night in town. We ended up going to the bar, having a few drinks, talking and having a great time. We then left and were drunkenly walking in town holding hand. I then kissed her. I then asked her something like want to go to my place? or it was something like that.(was hoping to get some action)She just smiled gave me a quick kiss and said something like no, have a great night. then she left.

December 15


the only thing that i remember from my dream was that, I ran into a kid i work with in town. he said hey and i said hey back. c

December 19


well i woke up today, then i dozed back off to sleep, a few minutes later i was dreaming. I was dreaming that me and another person i know were at my work, but the place looked completely different. There were new floors being put down and it looked nothing like my work. Anyways, since there was new floor being put down we decided to start running and sliding on the floor with our feet, only we still had our shoes on. you know how you can run on wooden floors and slid across on them if you have socks on. it was like that with shoes on. not sure if i was out of my body or not because as soon as i became lucid i knew i was in my body, I could feel myself laying down.


December 20


Just remembered a dream i had last night. I remembered that i was all alone and i was lighting and putting out candles with my mind. what i did was i had my thumb and index finger slightly apart, i pinched them together with an upward motion to light the candle. and to put out the candle i don't remember exactly but i think i did the same movement but in reverse. I think that i was sitting at a table doing this, and my had had to be about a foot away from the candle when i was doing this. I did this at least 4 or 5 time that i remember.

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December 28

Last week i had i dream that I was at work and i asked them what day is the Christmas party going to be on? They said i think its on the 29th. I then had work the next day and i asked someone when the party was going to be, they said that it will probably be some time next month.
Last night i had another dream i asked them when the party was going to be. They said that my boss was having a little party on the 29th but not the big Christmas party. I am not sure why i kept hearing the 29th because i have heard nothing about it being tomorrow, unless they mean January 29th, but that seems to far away for a christmas/holiday party.
I know have a feeling that something is going to happen tomorrow(party type). Theses dreams were strange because i dont think that they would plan a party on the 29th, and not tell anyone in advance.

[Mark930]

January 3

Last night i had a dream, i saw this guy with short wavy very light brown hair. He had very clear skin and was pretty tall, he looked to in his late teen's or early twenty's. I think that this person was getting his picture taken and i think he was in the city. I don't remember much of the background but there was a railing behind him that that i think he was holding on to at one point. I think that this was a Remote Vision because i didn't fell like i was part of it, just that i was being shown it. I do remember before going to bed looking at those pictures of New York you took so those probably influenced my dream.

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January 5

Had a dream about my mom again. I do not remember any of the conversation that we had or where we were. I have noticed that right when i wake up i seem to remember more of my dreams and i keep meaning to write them down when i wake up, but i always seem to be to sleepy to remember to do that. then i fall back asleep and most of my dream is lost.

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January 6

Had a strange dream me and a small group of people about 3 or 4 others, never seen any of them before. Well we were in this strange building that was pitch black with little to no light, but i could still see perfectly fine. The building was like a maze that i believe we were trying to escape from because of these evil animals that were attacking us. anyways we where in this one room that on one side there was a door or elevator and a hallway past that, and the other there was about a 20 foot drop to a floor below. Then theses monkeys came i think running out of the hallway, we were alarmed but then realized that they were good monkeys. one of the moneys jumped up on my back and held my shoulder, then jumped off. I got the feeling this was just to let me know he was a good one. about 2 or 3 minutes later a group of evil animals started to run in, I think they came from the elevator/door. the same good monkey jumped on my back again, clenched hard and screamed at the evil animals. I then jumped off the ledge and held on to the side of the edge hoping that they would not see me. An evil monkey then swiped at my face, i let go of my grip and fell the 20 feet to the next floor. I landed on my feet then i woke up.

When i woke up my heart was racing faster and my shoulder felt slightly warmer where the money was gripping. I'm not sure if this was an ap or not because it seemed like i was just "going with the flow" of the dream. Now that i look back on this dream it was very interesting because I remembered more from this dream then i normally remember.

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January 8

Had a dream that I helped a little girl find her mommy, I'm not sure if this was a dream or an AP because this was all the detail that I can remember. I'm hopping that it was an ap and not just a dream.

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January 10

Dreamed that inside my mouth i felt that one of my tooths was loose, i played with my tooth with my tongue. I then stuck my finger in my mouth to see what was going on. I ended up pulling it out, i placed it on my hand and noticed all my other teeth started to come loose. I then started spitting out blood and little shards of tooth in my hand. there was blood just dripping out of my mouth. In the middle of this dream i had a vision to why my teeth were just falling apart and it was linked to chewing ice.

I have had this same type of dream a few times, at least 2 other times that i remember.

[Mark930]

Had a dream about these 2 young girls between the age of 13 to 15 (think it was 2) they were running up the down escalator and laughing.

I have started to notice that it is starting to get harder for me to remember if these events really happened or if i dreamed/APed them. Throughout the day i start asking myself "did that really happen or did i dream that?"

[Mark930]

Had a dream that i was the character Clark Kent from the Smallville television show. I was with 3 other people they may have been other characters from the show i don't remember. We were in this dark room, there was this strange portal that one of the blond haired girls got sucked into and we all screamed no! i then ran and jumped in after here, the portal sucked me into another room and threw me down on a dark and dirty floor. I brushed myself off and looked at the portal and i could see the two other girls screaming and horrified that both of us got sucked in. The portal then turned into the eye of sauron type thing, then vanished. I went to look for the girl and we ended up in another room, we were sitting down and talking to this other guy? i think a guy. And he was playing with some ashes with his left had while talking to us. He said that he is the one who kills the reaper. He then said to me "You would make a good reaper." I got so pissed off at hi i said "No, you already burned me and i came out without a scratch! You can not kill me!"(I remember before this part something about be being in fire, but i dont remember any detail) I do not remember anything else from this dream, but i think this dream had two parts were i woke up and went back to sleep and dream it again.

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Last night i woke up at around 3am i then fell back asleep quickly and had a ap/dream right away. i was in my bed then i start to float up into the air, at this point at this point i became lucid and realized that i must have been aping. a strange thing was that i could not see anything, it was completely pitch black. anyways i then thought about being outside and i felt myself being pushed through the roof i then thought about being in my room. while back in my room i wanted to look at my bed to see if i could see my body but i started seeing the stars and i kept being pulled up so i never got a chance to have a good look. After a few seconds i just thought screw it just take me to the stars since i was already being pulled there. while being pulled up i still could not see anything but faint stars. also while being pull it started to feel like i was falling up, i also was cold while falling.

the next thing i remember was being in my room, but it was not mine. i was walking around and i touched a desk or something and it moved i asked another person there "i thought you could not touch things in ap?" the person that i asked was you sapphire? at this point i realized that we were not human but we were these invisible insects. the only thing that was visible were our fingerprints, finger and toenails don't remember exactly?, and out eyes. they were glowing bright. i remember that while there i had to make choices between things. the only one i remembered was i had to choose between the number 6 and nothing, i chose 6. the next thing i new was that were then start to breakout into a song and dance around the room, it was very strange.

[Mark930]

Had a nice sex dream, don't remember much detail but i think the girl was Mexican? The only other thing i remember was it was really good.

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Had a dream that i could see through my eyelids nearly perfectly. I realized that my eyes were closed but i could still see almost perfectly but slightly darker then normal vision. I then started to get so excited that my vision would slowly turn completely black, i then tried to relax and my vision returned. This happened a few times. I also opened and closed my eyes a few times to compare the difference, everything was the same just slightly darker with my eyelids closed. I was in some house, not sure where, possibly my own.

[Mark930]

had a very strange dream last night. for some reason i was putting makeup on, but it was obvious that i had no idea what i was doing. I was putting it in wrong places like lipstick on my nose, very strange. also remembered that my face was very clear, no black head or facial hair. i believe i then woke up.

Edit:

at one point in the night i woke up and while awake i head a voice, it said. "Remember Andy? You have 45 minutes left." No idea what this means if anything?

[Mark930]

had a dream last night, was in one part of town driving with my grandfather then somehow my bag must have fallen out of the car because next think i knew we where driving right past it. I told my grandfather that we needed to go back for it but he was hesitant and did not want to go back for some reason. This was very annoying but we ended up going back for it. I then forgot what happened for a while. the next thing i knew i was walking by this hallway and something in down the hallway districted me. I was then looking down the hallway and i saw these ghosts at the end of the hallway moving back and forth between rooms. then this small im guessing a child ghost was walking by the hallway, I wanted to get it's attention so i pointed and laughed at it. the ghost turned and looked at me, at this point i became fully aware i was dreaming and i said to myself. "I must be dreaming right now." I then started to imagine myself floating up into the air but no luck. I realized i was back in my body at that point. But for a few seconds i was fully aware i was dreaming or aping, that was pretty nice.

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had a dream that i went back to my old school. I don't remember this dream very well the only things i remember was that there was a lot of food there like a party. the other thing i remembered was that all the kids there thought i was so amazing because i graduated and was much older then them.